the ah ha moment

I have always been the type of person waiting and pleading for some special moment. I read the stories in the Bible and think that they should also happen to me. I have begged and pleaded with no fruit to show for my effort. To be honest it was downright discouraging. I didnt want to admit it but it just seemed that I was doomed to not get it.

I think we all are hoping for some miracle in our lives. We are all in some way wanting some knight in shining armour to come to our rescue in a bold and mighty and highly visible way so that we can without a doubt know that God is for us. And that is just it. We doubt. I doubt - to be frank. I just need more. I need to see. I need to touch. I need to hear...but the reality is that even if I saw, touched, and heard I would still doubt.

No, there is no proof tangible or otherwise that can beat down doubt. There is no cage fighter strong enough, quick enough or smart enough to cause doubt to tap out. Doubt is a dark enemy that has pierced my life for many years.

The ah ha moment I had this morning was that doubt has snuffed out the light, power, and effect of the simple truth of faith. Faith is the ah ha moment. Realizing that there are no ah ah moments; I dont need them when I believe. I don't need the spectacular or foreign to take hold of the truth that God lives in me and has given me power, wisdom, love, and His Spirit to do everthing He says. No, what I need is to simply believe.

I must have faith to walk with God. Faith allows me to see the miracle in the mundane, the nostaglic in the normal, the wonder in the worldly, and the face of God all around me.

I am no longer a slave to an ah ha moment, a special touch from the Maker, no, I have been freed to walk by faith and not by sight.